A hairy affair....


The traditional bow hair-cut style.


The Stephen Chow lazy hair do.


The 3 digit hair cut.

And then.... Something drastic happened...


The tekong 1 digit hair cut.


The dandruff look.


2mths later.. Its growing..


And growing.. (Imitating my girl, Diana.)


Yes! More!


It is alive....


wahahahaha.
(BTW whose more handsome? ;x)

But unfortunately...
DAMN RECOURSE~!


I give up... -_-

So there u have it..
The adventures of my hair..
My precious >_< And lastly,



I <3 Diana.

Hiak hiak.

Have you ever wondered, will there be a second chance for everyone to prove to their love that love truely exist. Is it an act of guilt or an act of sincerity. Is a hiatus that painful to one that it causes tears to the eyes or just a moment to understand each other needs. If so, why must a couple be apart to find that out. Is the phrase " You'll know how much you love her when she has left you" really stands for every relationship? What i'm about to depict is a story about a guy who almost understand what love is. Or so he claims.....

Suierad was 19, he fell in love with a girl on 26/09/2005.

She was his first girlfriend. He felt so happy that whatever she wants, she will shower her with every possible means. Even if it means brewing medicine and delivering to her when it was raining. Cooked her lunch and surprised her at work with a bento. Created a dish for her and even went down on his knees for forgiveness putting down all his dignity.

7 months had past, he was in her house and wanted to surprise her with their 7th mth anniversary folio that he made throughout their days together. Featuring all their past memories and the hearts he made. But before showing her, she said : " Lets call it quits, lets just be friends. " Should he smile or cry? He tried to reason out, but there was no use. Well a smile and " Friends we shall be =~). " Looking at her eyes, there were tears, he controlled but to no avail. It broke out like a water pipe while still putting on a smile.

He went senseless, every night crying, looking at the pictures and reminiscing memories. He went into a state of "coma". Everything was bland, tasteless , dull and dark. He began to find himself back, tried hard. He tried, tried , tried and tried. He totally lost himself. What happened to the once so strong and dauntless Suierad.

2 months have past, she found a boyfriend. Blissful as they are, he wishes them all the best. Slowly thinking it through, he finally picked himself up again. If it is meant to be, it'll be. He met alot of friends. Real nice ones. And during one of the outing,

A Spark..........

Was it an angel or a moment of curiousness. Putting all his guards up at every girl he meets. Not getting himself hurt again. Being his protective self, he went into relationship with D. Although all the love given from her were true, his guards were still up. But after finding out that she's a really nice girl, he decided to call it quits as he doesn't want to harm her further.
Painful as it seems, he decided to let it go. A short pain is better than a long suffering.

Days past, Suierad met D at several outings. Looking into her eyes, every tear seen, a thorn through his heart. Is it for the better? Is he regretting what he has done? He tolerated, finding himself back, asking himself, what does he truely want. Picturing all the happy moments together, he smiled and started to weep.

Finally on that day, " D, thank you for all the love you've given me. Right now, i've cleared my mind and decided. Through these days, seeing you not being with me, is like a tree without a koala bear clinging on. You beautify my life, I want you back because you're all i can ever ask for. Sorry for all the doubts and misunderstandings.
I love you."

"When you're with me, nothing is impossible."



Diana & Dareius
14/09/06
<333

Right guys. See you all and have fun alright.

To all friends,brothers,sisters,lovers and slaves of mine. Thank you for coming to the farewell dinner held at my place. Without you guys, it wouldn't have been a success. Please take good care of yourself, and remember to sleep well alright. Bloody gamers play till so late and worse, still so gu niang "yabayabayaba".

Personal messages.

Peanut - Thanks for everything my sugar mama. Hope i didn't trouble you alot and was being a menace. Anyway I think you love me like that right. So it doesn't matter tsk tsk. PRACTICE ON UR REVERSING SKILLS PLEASE.

Fai - Bloody hell bro, i think u should go for army BMT course man. Train you to be a man! Haha just kidding, you're just gentle. A gentleman in my eyes and hands. Ops. Ok enough internal secrets. And please do take care of your health and stop auditioning like some freaktard.

Arvin - What if I said I found someone that I really love alot but I'm scared to relive the situation I had in the past. Anyway, during this 7 weeks is reflection time for me so yeah. Pretty sure I'll know the answer then. Then u better get someone! haha. Leave the gardens to Fai.

Ryan - Look to the future, you're doing it brightly and well. Strive to what u want to achieve and soon you'll see the fruits bloom infront of you. And stop humping!!

Alvin - I still remember you don't worry. I treasure my friends closely and yes you're still being thought of. Hope you remember what I said and yeah overall you're cool and nice. AND NO BOTAK PICS. TSKTSK.

Michelle(dazer) - Sick still go bunk. Health is more important than gaming. Take lotsa care or I'll send rexii to watch you 24/7. ^^

Joyce(TYB) - Another one. Sick still play audition -_-. And there's no way you're gonna cook rexii yeah. Cause his mine! Same thing. Take lotsa care but I won't send rexii to watch you. I'll ask Fai to watch you instead LOL.

Shiki - Thanks for the liquer and accompaniment man. Next time lets Tah till we puke in our boxers ^^.

iVodka mates - Its been a pleasure meeting you all and I hope you had fun being in this guild. Remember, Once an iVodkarian, always an iVodkarian.

And Finally,

Diana - Please remember to........ check your sms ^^. (undisclosed)


I'll miss all of 'D' Auditioners and see all of you soon.

Take care and remember,

Tock is everywhere.

Quote of the day : " Do not conclude by what u feel at that moment and make sure that its for a life time. "

To begin with firstly, this is going to be a long post so bear with me yeah. Thanks alot.
This is upon request as you all noticed I didn't write much about my life and living. So here's
dareius for you. Don't be alarmed ^^

02061986, the year of the tiger.
It is said that it was a baby booming year.
and yes thats when I, Dareius was born.
Weighing a killer 16kg or so i was like a potential bomb ready to tire out my parents
hands.

I used to remember whenever anyone tries to take me away from my dad, I would make
a big fuss by crying out loud and start to throw my tantrum. My relationship with my dad is
like a koala bear to a tree. Sometimes I wonder, how would i react if my dad suddenly kick the bucket. I'm not that really prepared. As for my mum, we used to quarrel 24/7 before as I was
a rebellious child with my own mind. Thankfully,now our relationship is almost like a couple, we hold hands during shopping and oftenly while I'm on my com, she would come to me and peck on my lips. How sweet right except for the lipsticks ;x.

When I was a toddler, whenever my uncle smoked, I would throw his cigarette away and nag
about the effects of tobacco which then would bore him and he'll start to tickle me to death -_-. Whenever I see someone crying, I would go and console the person and unknowingly tear too. When my school mate has no money, I would generously treat him to a bowl of noodles. I wanted everyone around me to be happy neglecting my happiness. Any girls that I fancy, I would let my friends have them and give it a go. I would just smile and say to myself that everything will be alright. I used to be afraid of girls as I find that their the evilness and torture to men's life. Haha of course back then I had many countless mishaps with girls and I don't know why too. Its like while walking with my friend, I could suddenly drop into the drain or bump into a sign board which is like so big, even shaq o'niel would have seen it. And not forgetting the fact that i'm real shy when I was with girls. 5 girls in a room could turn me into a living tomato already.

Whenever people asked me about my love relationship and life. I would just tell them that I can't settle down as I can't be satisfied with one. Then they'll go, Dareius forever the same, such a playa. I had many countless attempts of getting into relationship but in the end I called it off as I didn't felt any chemistry anymore. Perhaps I'm too flamboyant and wants people attention. Maybe, I don't know. In my whole 20 years, I only had one girlfriend. Unbelievable? Believe it!

Is life that cruel or do you have to look it in a way whereby everything is clear and bright. Its like why must there be relationships when there is pain so painful that it causes someone to breakdown or even commit suicide. Change their targets and go for the same gender. Decides to fling instead of commit. True there's countless numbers of true love and relationship but how few are they? Yesterday, when I saw ryan cried in the room, it made me reminisce back and I almost teared. But why tear when its not going to relive back the past or bring happiness to you. So Ryan , to you my bro, cheer up and look towards the future. There's still many things to experience. Be strong and stay firm always yeah.

Everyday at night, i would question myself, what have I been up to lately. Has it improved my life in anyway or prospect? Is there anyway I can solve this problem and turn it into my advantage? Am i stable enough to commit? All this questions have been boggling my mind for years and till now, there's no answers to them. Well at least a few. If I were given a chance to commit or fling, deep down in my heart, I just want to love someone dearly and provide her with all the luxury and time. I did it once, so yeah thats me ;P.

Commit or Fling? Which would u choose?

Quote of the day : " Love without lust is impossible but lust without love is possible."

Browsing through the crowd as I surface each and every faces vividly,
A glimming light beams right into my eyes.
There she was. A red clad lady with an hourglass figure who looks so fine that
any wolf would pounce on and rip her apart bit by bit.
Devouring her to that very last bone of hers.
As she turns around and smiled, noticing my every gesture, I start to feel her in
me, lingering my mojo and tenderlizing the sensitive parts out of me forcing
a minute erection.

To be continued.....

Quote of the day : " Its not whether you can do it or not, but whether u want to make an effort
in doing it."



In Life, there's always troubles.
Do not run away from them.
Face it and broaden your mind.
Always look on the bright side of life.
And you will find that nothing is impossible.

Chase your dreams....

Sup all. I've decided to blog once again since i've got back the mood.
Thanks to all who have helped me including maybeline and ange.
Without you two i may be still stuck staring at the monitor 24/7.

I'll be coming up with a photo album soon at the section of "love and lust"
so stay tune for more updates yeah.


Quote for the day : " The kiss is a tool so powerful that it either creates blissful love or a lust so great that engulfs your body into vigorous fornication."